Stuck In A Hole
Panic attack: A sudden feeling of acute or disabling anxiety. It was a summer evening filled with fireflies at Windermere Baptist Conference Center. My roommate was gone for the weekend, and I found myself alone alternately listening to Sanctus Real and Mozart piano sonatas. As I cleaned our bathroom I sang and hummed along, happy to be done with another of making beds and folding towels. A few minutes later, I was huddling on the floor crying, "I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone." The sobbing did not let up for a solid ten minutes. While one part of me cried and gripped the carpet, another part of me stayed aloof and confused. I kept asking myself, "What is this? What is happening to me?" but could find no answer in my realm of experience. This only scared me more. It was my first panic attack. Eventually, I called two friends and they calmed me down. This has remained a trend in my panic attack histor