Palmtree Contemplations

As I look back over the last year of life, a lot has changed. I am definitely not who I was last year in November. I want to take this moment to remember some of the greatest moments of of my twenty-first decade of life. Hence, the list that follows. When I Was 21... 1. Tea-Time Started And Didn't Stop. Basically, a bunch of people will receive a text inviting them to my apartment for said "tea-time". They show up, tell me what kind of tea they want to drink, and then tell me about their lives. It was never going to be anything spectacular. I just wanted to be around my friends more. Now, though, I get requests for it. "Please call for a tea-time," my friends ask. I have found that after a long day all I really want is to come home to my apartment, put on the kettle while friends arrive, and then listen as they tell me of their adventures. For me, that is why Tea-Time is my favorite event: I am able to listen and serve my friends, and in this way I let them

Do you remember that night years ago When we stood between two Freeways? I don't usually care to think of that. Do you remember how the darkness Sat around us while light streamed on Above? It all smelled of cigarettes and trash. Do you remember what you said, How brightly we dreamed at winter's Midnight? We were foolish then, and young, especially you. I remember how you gave me wisdom, With kindness and consideration for my Fears. You were always afraid then, weren't you? I remember that you said God Could work in and through my Doubts. God and I were on good terms then. Life had not happened yet. I remember how hopeful you were,  How even roaring cars kindled your life giving Ideas. Yes, well, ideas and hope were nice things back then. Look, I've gotta be somewhere. Later. While I went one light filled way, you went Nowhere. I pray you will remember and find strength to leave That prison. Wave your hand and catch a Ride.

The Weeping Daughter The light here is blue And yet the ground is red. All is collision where I sit, With my problems still unsaid. I am weak, You are strong Of course all this true. But nothing is its proper color So what am I to do? I whisper and I weep, Floating in a purple daze You bring me back to blood stained earth, By Your Love that always stays. It is tranquil blue, yet fiery red. I cannot understand it. Help me penetrate this mystery, Show me how the colors fit. I Would Like... I would like to see Without thought of being seen. I would like to speak Without fear of being overheard. I would like to end These fierce desires stirred. My heart glows warm, beats cold Wanting what it cannot hold. I would like to know Without ever being known. I would like to take Without ever being taken. I would like to stay Half asleep while awakened To the cadence of your voice Painting the soft white noise. I would like to leave Without wishing I could sta